Saturday, November 25, 2006
gratification
i spent TWO AND A HALF HOURS just packin my room ydy!! i was so tired, i really wanted to just stop & leave my pile of mess in the room. if u see the amount of things i had to pack, u would probably say, another day. but seriously, procrastinating is not going to get you anywhere, as i've learnt in this year! i always said i wanted to start my revision like say in june of july but i never did till A MONTH before Os! wow! so is that suppose to get me a GOOD course in poly?! anyway, when the results are out, it'll definitely show how much ive been revisin & studyin this year. i DREAD for that day to come. anyway, when my room was packed, i was gratified & it's ALMOST immaculate. yes, ALMOST. thats because a quarter of my room is still in a mess. that would be where i throw all my cds. i need another box, a NICE box. probably make a trip down to IKEA one day. FAIZ!!! MEATBALS!!! WHEN??!!!
well, i was just wondering to myself if i was eschewing from the little talk he wants to have with me. or am i just trying to make life diffcult for him? well, i dont know, what exactly is it that i want? should i just swallow my pride & just strike a conversation with him or just wait? & have i fell into the trap? something which him & i talked about ONE year back. yes, one year. anyway, what i thought was indelible is ebbing away. why? it's about time i moved on!! like hello?! living in the past gets u NOWHERE & why should i get myself into a sordid mess like he did? my friends & ppl around me had always told me & warned me about the consequences. it's not like i didnt understood or it never got into my head, but it was just that sometimes my feelings get over my priorities. how bad could that be? VERY! well, ive cleared up say about half my wardrobe? no, i dont mean literally, but wen would noe. so wen, how much have u cleared up? i bet uve cleared up like 3/4, maybe even the WHOLE wardrobe. im taking eons to do mine.
watching the sunset with you
11:48 PM
