Friday, July 28, 2006
SUNDAY (23/07)
when you don't expect too much out of it, things will turn out just FINE. well, today was a simply PERFECT! well, i was going down and then i saw a pair of feet walkin back to church, the shoe looked so familar, i thought it was him, then i saw the legs, DUH!! it wasnt him! anw, i was walkin twds church, a turn of my head to the right, a familar figure was walking in my direction, my heart skipped a beat, because i was SHOCKED, nothing else. then he raised his hand & waved, givin a smile, then me bein really relaxed but at the same time a little shocked cux i didnt expect him to pop out, i gave a friendly wave & smiled, then i made my way to church, not waitin for him. i knew i wasnt ready to talk to him, i know my limits ever since monday & decided that i shouldnt push it.
ive learned something today too, dont put too much of hope & expectations into it, you'll only be left disappointed. always go there expectin the least, trust me, you'll leave the place feelin really satisfied. sometimes when u expect the least, the outcome will be even better than you expect. lesson learnt! anw, i saw his 2nd bro & his 2nd bro's gf, the person i was suppose to meet back in dec. well, with the eyes of suspicion she gave me, kind of got me thinkin that she probably recognised me. i guess he probably showed her a pic of me, gd thing my hair covered up my extra earrings & i was dressed simply. clad in a big tee, mini skirt & a denim jkt, with mascara, eyeliner & lip gloss. so i guess her impression of me was just simple, well, thing is, ive become more simple ever since. sometimes im just fascinated by what little things like a guy can do to someone. ive learnt how to reflect on things more compared to last time, i take criticisms better & ive got more heart to change & become a better person, for the sake of MYSELF & the ppl ard me, not him!!
anw, i wanted to catch a glimpse of his 2nd bro, but i was well, a step too late. it was only until i realised that they walked in with his parents then did i figure out, "oh, thats his 2nd bro & the gf." so of course what i saw was just his bro's back. HAH!! sounds naughty aye? let me tell you why i wanted to catch a glimpse of his 2nd bro, his eldest bro looked like a korean artiste! damn good lookin la. ahh.... i well, unconsciously fell for his eldest bro. YEA RIGHT!! anw, tmr's another day at sch, it's about time i turned in, i dont want to go to school with my brain still in bed & me bein comatosed.
watching the sunset with you
8:39 PM
