Tuesday, May 30, 2006
flustered
ok, i cant take this any longer, i need to say something to my WONDERFUL FRIENDS. no words can describe how wonderful u ppl have been & seriously, u ppl have been helpin me through my probs & seein me through those tough times which i seriously thought ill be caught in for eons! but because of you ppl & your more-than-willing help, i pulled through & "woke" up from that horrible nightmare. whether you scolded me, adviced me or whatever it is, i really appreciate it a lot. it was really an experience to learn from & indeed, i came out stronger than i thought i would. well, i admit i hvnt FULLY let go yet, it's just majority, but i definitely have moved on & no, im not bein sucked in by that sand storm anymore, ive pulled myself out of it. the times we had together, alughin, boxin, whackin, shoutin at each other etc, im def gna rmb all those times cux theyre all precious gems to me. you ppl r ppl whore hard to come by, really, ill def not 4get u ppl. LOVE YA!!!
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ok, i need to vent my anger & frustration here. im so disappointed & flustered by what is happenin!! this is outrageously RIDICULOUS!!! what exactly is wrong with you guys out there?! can't you consider the feelings of a girl instead of hurtin her?! after then only did you realize?! what are you tryin to do a girl here? i just really think you really deserved to get a punch from someone!! i havent been there for a month & so much is happenin, good ones & bad ones. i wanted so badly to be back at church while i was studyin at home, i just really missed my churchmates & the times we had fellowshippin together & havin lunch together. finally ill be back at church dis wk!! HARLOW CHURCH!!! heh.
tdy durin chem, we did the 4Express paper while each of us waited to be tested on our pract skills. then *poof* the truth finally came out! ms lee told us that when we're testin for hydrogen, dun put the lighted splint into the test tube, just put it abv the test tube. so it was then that faiz & i realized, "oh!! no wonder u burnt my paper la!" before the pract, while we were removin evth, faiz & i kept a distance from each other just in case we injure/burn each other of what the both of us thought was, "i think she's gonna burn my WHOLE paper!". lolx. it'll be one of those things where ull rmb aft u leave sec sch. o no!! i think im gna start tearin now!! SHAQ!! i cant believe im alr 16+ & doin my Os dis yr alr which oso means ill be leavin dis sch. *bawling*
well, i just need to type my thoughts here, allow me to spill my emotions here. seriously, i think most of you wld noe that i wldve let go already. well, it's only 60%, yes, i noe, it's well, majority but theres still that pinch in me that just wldnt let go. but i will soon, i hv no plans in the near future or rthr, at all to get attached. sayin near future is an understatement. i dunno but im just so scared now la! ive got a phoebia alr.
to my nice little AH MA: pls smile for me? dont hv that mechlancholic expression, i noe it's hard but be strong, turn it into a strength, you can do it. if you need someone to tok to, just call me. dont keep it inside, it'll be even worse. if you hv to cry, cry it all out.
watching the sunset with you
7:14 PM
