Sunday, May 14, 2006
2 chances
im here to blog again! wat a life i lead! anw, ive come to a conclusion, one that will proba cause wern to take a knife & slaughter me? I CARN STUDY ON WEEKENDS!!! i get only 1/4 of work done compared to normal days which i shld say is as gd as nothing since this yr is THE big Os?! for my brain & i, weekends is equivalent to day-off. so maybe during prelims & Os im gna attend church & not mug, i squadered half my day away! maybe it's the distractions, maybe it's just me not wantin to study, maybe im just plain lazy. all those maybes are gonna kill me at the Os!! jo, rnt u suppose to be aimin for 15 at prelims/Os? what are you doin slackin your butt off?! i just hope my attitude twds study will change, at least i can assure myself that ill pass my Os. i need to pass my Os DESPERATELY!!
ok, i seriously have to pass him the letter like ASAP. yesyes, tts just something thats distractin me from studyin on a WEEKEND. so ive got 2 chances, one thats on the 21st and another on the 29th. ive been sittin dwn & doin a lot of analysis lately which maybe it's a little too late, but who knows? sheh made a comment, which im not gonna say anything about. in any case, im just going to get myself out of this enigma & i just hope he'll at least give me a definite answer & not leave me hanging in the air. & surprisingly, ive been puttin on a brave front & not lkin melancholic. great job! tts a great achievement for me & for ppl who knew me since like sec1? im a complete temprementalist person, my mood swings were erractic last time, u wldnt even wan to be ard me. surprisingly, ive changed, drastically, i have to add. ok, the next parag may seem like a paradox, but i just needed a place to express my anger.
i had this conversation with someone ydy, i shant mention the name, but it's definitely none of you readin this, i assure u. anw, she asked, "you're still not able to let go?" i din say yes, i said "y do u say that?" she gave me all the reasons she cld think of, but every reason she gave me, i cld come up with anth reason to cancel tt one out. all her reasons were void! ok, i noe i carn let go, but im just gonna say this point blank! i dont like it when ppl make assumptions & theres one thing, i NEVER told her anything about me not bein able to let go, ive never went to her for advise. ok, i did, once or twice at the most cux i realized we never saw things on the same prospective, on the same line. & she made this statement which totally ticked me off, "in FACT, you're his ex." HARLOW!! befor you use those two words, "in fact.", get your facts right 1st before makin a statement! im gna say it once & for all & im not gna repeat it agn, WE WERE NEVER ATTACHED, IT JUST
SEEMED LIKE WE WERE. but in any case, im not gna pursue this matter anymore, she can make assumptions for all i care cux all i noe is that her feelings are just not one of a normal human being. im not sayin she has a feelin of an animal, but it's just one that completely turns me off!
watching the sunset with you
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